February

Yesterday was February 1st. Not a big deal for most people, but it was a tough day for me. February 1st meant that January was officially over and we didn't get the referral call we so hoped would come.

For some reason, I thought FOR SURE we would get called in January...so much that I calculated the odds for each day based on the number of days our agency was open and historical data and marked those odds on my calendar so I could track all month (I know, I know...I'm a numbers nerd!). The point is, I let my heart expect that call so deeply that when I woke up yesterday, the 1st of February, and still didn't know our child it left me heartbroken.

I decided yesterday that I would guard my heart this month. I would assume that we aren't getting a referral in February and that way I can't be hurt when it doesn't happen. I took the whole day to be disappointed (and more than a little grumpy), and then I woke up this morning, February 2nd.....

Guess what I did first thing this morning....I calculated the odds for each day in February based on the numbers of days that our agency is open and historical data and marked those odds on my calendar so I can track all month. So much for guarding my heart, huh?

Please, Please, Please join us in praying that February will be the month that we FINALLY get our referral!!!